light of my life

the trip to Vietnam is a fulfilling to me cos I've found someone special to me. the trip maybe jus 1 week bt i enjoy the time we haf n would like to spend the rest of my life with u. it is a blessing for mi to haf u by my side. i will gif u all the love i haf to u n will not tolerate any1 to bully u or say anything bad abt u cos u my only precious who i wont let any1 touch. i love u my girl.

flying off.

flying off to vietnam on 1st oct for a week n i wonder will there be sum1 worrying abt my safety over there or not. i dun think there will be ba as wat i see frm the msg tt i've recieve yesterday night bt i really wish i can see her before i fly off. wat to do, can any1 tell mi wat to do?

i noe no matter wat i do, it maybe still be impossible frm wat i see. isit all relationship end up will become like this will it come to an end? if tt the case i rather be close to her rather than having a relationship. at least we will still contact each other or care for each other. failure in study, failure in career , failure in relationship n failure in everything.

i lose sum1 special

haix i think i'm really a failure. whenever there sum1 special come into my life i will lose it de n tt for sure. actually all tis thing happen too sudden n i also dun blame any1 for wat happen but wat i noe so far is all gd thing n i noe i lose sum1 special. no1 will stand up for mi if sum1 talk bad abt mi n tis is sth which impress mi deep dwn in my heart. nvm tis is all been plan by GOD n we mus accept wat happen next in future but i will still wait for the chance to come again n grab it n treassure like nobody business. i love u deeply. i hope when everything is ready u will tell mi n gif mi the chance again.

so bored!

haix so sian holidays still mus come back school. why i go choose tis cds sia make mi so fan. m i not strong enough to be sum1 or i'm jus a plain loser in life? i can see so many opportunity out there n i jus cant get any of it to make it mine. Sum1 close to mi once said he dun believe in fate cos he believe tt if sum1 wanna sth no matter if he is poor or wat as long as he really wan it he will get it in the end but is tis really true? to mi i think is true but i think is really up to the person himself/herself to get it n no matter how ppl push is still up to him to see wat is important at the moment n not seeing the opportunity there n dun get it. now i think i really nid sum1 to be there for mi n listen to mi. i hate the feeling of talking to a non-living thing abt how i feel or seeking for advice haix. ppl can find mi funny or easy to talk to but deep inside mi i'm no1 but jus a loser. i may haf alot of contact in my fone but does every1 inside my fone but do they really wan to be my friend anot all tis a question. maybe is all my fault to tt cos all tis happen but how to change when the habit is with mi for 22yr of my life. is jus like u asking a smoker to quit smoking. Sian ah life is really meaningless. Bro i think frm now on u go on with ur thing n dun worry abt mi k i will do it at my own pace cos i dun1 to drag u down wif mi. i noe i'm now is burden to u i'm sorry abt tt but i think i'm really not hard enough. dun worry i'm not giving up but jus doing it slowly cos i dun haf the fate i nid in mi now. sorry for wasting so much of ur time.